Another roller coaster ride of unattended emotions,
Misplaced and misdirected.
The anxiety and panic of what to do with all of it,
Sweeps my mind unexpectedly.
But I should be used to it by now.
Why am I so afraid?
My heart is always heavy.
Oh, something bad is coming.
It keeps me up at night.
Not even being intoxicated by the sweet lips of death can help.