I was sick and intoxicated by life.
I sought out love as a new drug,
And love ruined me.
She was beautiful.
Ill and abused by life,
Hiding behind her invisible walls.
For years they stood strong,
Till I walked by.
She quickly let me in.
For the more she gazed at me,
They more she saw pain like hers
Tattooed on my soul.
It was a beautiful yet toxic relationship
That moved too fast,
Till I heard them in my head.
And in trying to protect her from my monsters,
She built back her walls.
Love ruined me and I am afraid of it.
I guess to love me,
You have to love my monsters first.