I fear I will never give you my whole.
Because I love how I feel.
It is all I have known.
I fear that I will fail you.
It will start well then I will hurt you.
It won’t be intentional.
I fear you will not understand.
When you say let me in.
But I will just want to be alone.
I fear I will break you.
You will try to change me,
But to no avail.
I will shut down sometimes.
I will try not to feel.
I will push you away.
But I know you will still say you love me.
I will cry and find comfort in you.
But I will also hide, and flee from you.