Writing is the easiest way I can express or lash out my emotions. The pain, grievance or joy from my heart slowly finds itself on this blog to help me become better at expressing myself. I feel more human and calm knowing someone can relate to my words.

I am depressed with a pinch of anxiety plus I think I am psychotic. For years I have been trying to hold down the voices in my head; to find some sanity. It’s exhausting wearing different faces but I must force emotions out to avoid being asked “how I am doing” or “what is wrong”. It is an everyday battle and some days are better than others.

P.S. The name of my blog Deathwalks was inspired by my everyday struggle of suicidal thoughts….


I have moved to “jonathanmpulubusi.wordpress.com” and all my content plus new content is there. Thank you all!